I didn't know I was Pregnant?!

Well, it's true. I should be on TLC. If you haven't heard the story or if you just can't get enough here it is. I'll start with Sunday, January 23rd. Jacob and I met Blake and David at SmashBurger for dinner. While they were ordering, Jacob and I were talking and for some reason discussed when we wanted to have kids. For the first time ever, we both were 100% sure we were ready to start trying AND I felt complete peace about it. This is important because later that night Jacob had enough of my complaining about how my pants didn't fit and my stomach was unusually large. We decided to go to Kroger at 10pm and get a pregnancy test. Actually, 3 of them. I am a firefighter and always have plenty of urine so I took it right away.

positive.

I couldn't believe it. There's no way. I convinced myself it was wrong and then took the next 2 within the next 24 hours. As we were getting ready for bed the next night I just couldn't take it. I needed a "second opinion" (aka a different brand and maybe the more expensive one that doesn't have lines but actually says the words "pregnant"). I took the test...made sure I followed all the directions to the T.

"Pregnant"

I figured maybe the "not" just hadn't shown up yet. We had a Dr's appointment scheduled with a fertility specialist on Wednesday...we'd been going since December (we wanted to have a kid in the near future and figured it would probably take awhile). I figured we'd wait and see what he had to say about my blood test results.

When we walk into his office the Dr was smirking. We wouldn't let ourselves get excited because it was just too good to be true so we waited to hear it from him: "the only explanation of your blood tests are that you are already pregnant. congratulations."

!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

They were able to do an ultrasound immediately. He thought the baby would be 2, maybe 6 weeks along. oops! how about 5 months? I went from feeling overjoyed to feeling stupid to being so excited I didn't care! We were expecting...in MAY!

Now, I hate to admit this but I consider myself healthy and think that I know what's going on with my body. It was a pretty big shock that I was pregnant and didn't know it. I always thought I'd read every book and eat every perfect food and do everything perfect for my baby. Instead, I went skiing at 4 months, played basketball 2-3 times a week with men twice my size and tried running on treadmills on a regular basis. I say try because I wasn't able to run more than a quarter mile at a time without walking. Not because I was out of breath but my body just couldn't take it. Little did I know, God was just taking care of us. I am overwhelmed with how God protected me and the baby in the several months that I was living my life not knowing.

I suppose this is God's way of saying that He is in control. That He did this wonderful thing. And that I can take no credit for the wonderful miracle growing inside me. God has given me such peace and joy about this pregnancy (now that I know) than I ever could have imagined possible. What I thought was PCOS and unexplainable weight gain was God's perfect plan unfolding! Before Sunday night I don't know what my reaction to pregnancy would have been. I don't know if I would have felt the peace I feel now that God's timing is PERFECT. I wouldn't change a thing. Maybe I wouldn't have have a Dr Pepper here or there...but in all things God works for the good of those who love Him who have been called according to His purpose!